May 12 2009
Damn my no-talking-about-people-on-my-blog policy!
There is this person. I hate this person. My hatred is starting to get a little unhealthy. I am really trying to be zen about it but I swallow and ignore so much to try to keep peace that when I do let myself get annoyed, I totally go overboard and get obsessed. Like now where I cannot think about anything else other than telling off and face punching. Ugh.
I really have a lot of stuff I want to rant about related to he/she and there is only one person I can really vent about said person to (aside from the poor occasional unsuspecting friend who sometimes accidentally sets off a rant) so I sometimes really need a place to just get it out of my system.
But alas, I have maturity and rationality and long ago I decided not to talk about anyone on my blog no matter how unlikely it was that they would read it or even recognize themselves on it and I need to stick to it. But sometimes it is really hard. I don’t want to always have to dump on my one confidant every time this hell beast swoops in and ticks me off.
This is so weird for me. With friends, if someone is annoying to be around or gives me a hard time, I do the old, confront then tell off then move on if they cannot mend their ways. I don’t have that luxury here so I am stuck and it is so counter to how I run my life, it is driving me nuts. My brain is all, this person makes our life unpleasant, cut them out, and my rationality is like, we can’t and it just does not compute that I am just stuck with this for all eternity. I want to eliminate people who are bad for my life from my life, darn it!
The most annoying part of this is that, normally, I deal with all my demons in my writing. I have tried numerous times to work the hell beast into a story to try to exercise my hatred and I just cannot do it. I dislike said person so much that it isn’t even fun to write them.
I was thinking of getting it out of my system by writing “tell-off” emails to this person and then just never sending them. Of course, the flaw with this is that I would totally send them if I was in the right mood so perhaps this is not the best course of action after all.
Hillary is an award winning playwright, fiction and non-fiction author best known for her play, The Love of Three Oranges which has been performed around the world. A Script Frenzy and NaNoWriMo ML, she loves connecting with other writers no matter what their experience levels. For the business side of blogging, publishing and selling, visit Hillary at The Whine Seller. See a complete list of Hillary’s blogs and books here.
